Break ups suck so much. I feel like my heart was ripped out and played with. I feel like I don’t have a heart anymore. It hurts so bad. I’m so miserable and I can’t sleep. It hurts knowing that he didn’t even fight for me. It hurts knowing that he just gave up on me just like that. It hurts knowing that he broke all of his promises. It hurts knowing that he promised he wouldn’t leave me and he did. He left me all alone. Just like it’s nothing. Because it’s not his heart that’s torn to pieces it’s mine. And even though I broke up with him, he pushed me into it. He disrespected me. But in the end he blamed it all on me being so jealous of everything. He told me how great our future would be while we were together and when we broke up he said that we would have had a horrible future together. How could someone just lie to you like that? My heart isn’t a heart anymore. I can’t feel it. Actually I feel too much of it. So much that I can’t breathe every time I think of what went wrong. He said we could remain friends but lets face it, ex’s can’t be friends. That’s the truth. He blocked me on Instagram and Facebook after that. After everything we went through and tomorrow would have been our 5 month anniversary. But no, ill just be sitting here crying my eyes out like usual. It sucks so bad knowing that he cared so much less than I did. I really loved him. He meant everything in the world to me. I don’t know how I’m going to heal. I don’t know how to deal with any of this. I feel so betrayed and heart broken and sad and depressed and lied to. My eyes are so swollen from crying.